There's a good chance i hate you

Having an extensive list of annoyances and peeves, there is a very strong possibility that I hate you. Not that if we had a few beers I wouldn't see your merits, and come around to genuinely liking you, but of course that will never happen. I'm not writing about my friends, that's why they're my friends. Generally they don't piss me off or possess attributes I find annoying. However the rest of the unkown, or general public get's in my way and exists solely as impedence in getting from point A to point B (I mean this both literally and metaphysically). It's not a lingering personal hate. I don't wish any true harm, although if you drive I-84 in the afternoons below the speed limit in the left lane I may truly wish you mild personal injury (even though my words would imply great personal insury). I'm not hating because of some perception of superiority, though I'm pretty sure I've got somethings working that you don't. Nor am I implying that I am above reproach. On the contrary, I am quite loathesome, particularly if you don't know me. Generally this is how we function in our society. Anyone outside of our immediate relations are suspect. And if they present an annoyance, percieved disregard or hinderance they are then hated, if only briefly and anonymously. It's nothing personal, but i hate you. That's the crux of the biscuit though. It's an impersonal hate that we've acquired by being surrounded by so many people that we know nothing about and never will know. It's not a village anymore. At least in the village you could all agree that Jed was an asshole but you all now Jed. And through knowing you gain understaning and compassion, regardless of Jed's lack of redeeming qualities. Of course I realize this sounds terribly unhealthy. However I would impart a few words from Bill Hicks "I suggest you look around at the world we in which we live and shuttin' your fuckin' mouth." We are pushed to compete. We are given ridiculous and superficial goals to 'attain'. We measure value more by income and material acquisition than works of good and personal happiness. Our religious and national ideological structure has been formed into an Us Vs. Them mentality. Saved vs. unsaved. Patriots vs. leftists. Our existence has ultimately been polarized. Their is nothing more than right and wrong, love and hate. From a distance it's all black or white, but when you get real close you see the grey inbetween. That is how we view people. Our close relationships are shades of grey depending on whatever interpersonal politics are going on, because we are close to these people for prolonged periods of time. We learn to sympathize with them as they sympathize with us. The stangers inhabiting day to day life, the filler life, are loved or hated based solely on their actions for the brief moment we pass by them. It's never the personal hate from direct wrong doing, it's a defensive hate caused by little actions that are contrary, not necessarily harmful to our current objective. 'That fucker cut me off!" "Bitch took the last Cherry Garcia!" "Fuckin' hooker laughed at my dick!" It's not intentional. It's not harmful. It's a product of the society in which I was raised. It's a safe defensive hate. It's anonomously attached to an unwitting and oblivious stranger that I will never know, speak to, see or cross paths with again. For that brief period they are my scapegoat, my sweet psychic release from the stressors of life. I hate you, I love you. It's nothing personal.